I See The Light!

So, it's been a while now, but I finally found some time to sit and blog. I'd really like to hit the hay right now, but I'll catch everyone up first. Things have been going really well. I'm back into the swing of watching the kiddos and it has been very manageable. I'd missed them while on my break. We've loved the warmer days, though they're few and far between. We even got out for some walks!
Grayson is getting so big! He's smiling so much and is pretty easy for some of his familiar people to get a smile out of. He's weighing right around 11 lbs now, so crazy! He's moving into the next size of clothing and is almost into a new size diaper. He is a daily joy and I find myself thanking the Lord often for the blessing of our son. Watching him grow and change is amazing. His mouth has found his hands and the last week has been a constant slobbering fest for his little fists. I specify mouth because I'm pretty sure his eyes haven't figured out that there are hands yet! He's starting to reach up towards our faces when we play with him. Grayson still detests tummy time, but we muddle through it to make sure he gets all strong and such. Here's a new picture of our little man.

We made a trip to good old Milton-Freewater to visit with my Grandparents on my dad's side. We had a really good visit! It was my grandpa's birthday, which lamely, we didn't remember! Grayson loves hanging out with my grandma and she is great with babies. Here they are.

Andy, Grayson and I went and watched my little sisters be baptized yesterday. It was such an honor to be there and be a part of such an incredible decision to publicly show that they have chosen to follow Christ. Both of them have made this decision long ago, but the Lord led them to baptized, which is awesome!
Watching them be baptized made me think back and reflect on Andy and I's baptism last year. It was such a stretching time and I'm glad I can look back with perspective now. I remember we had gone and met with our pastor and had said we wanted to be baptized at the next available time. I sat there so excited because as I was thinking about the life that is anew with Jesus, I had life inside of me after 4 1/2 years of pain and yearning. Shortly after, we lost the baby. I was angry, yet I knew God didn't deserve my anger, so I didn't allow myself to be angry with him, yet I questioned the Lord's plan for my life. Why, after such a long wait and then such joy, was it cut short? Why allow me to be pregnant at all if he was just going to take it from me? I found myself feeling nonchalant about being baptized. I decided to stick with my decision only because I knew God asked it of us. I was sad that I'd lost the excitement and sense of privalege of being washed anew. I did it out of obedience, no matter my feelings. I can look back and know that my act of obedience towards God means so much more to me than any other scenario could have. I think that's what we have to remember these days. We do what we should...doesn't make it easy, fun or popular. We need to do what we should raising our children, in how we treat others and how we serve. It's not about us. It's not easy and I fail daily. Luckily, our Father forgives. Obviously, we have been blessed with Grayson and it makes the past struggles easier to swallow, but I can appreciate how God has grown Andy and I through it all. Whew, sorry you just got all of my yammering.

Ironically, this post is titled, "I've Seen the Light," because we have settled into "normalacy" with Grayson, yet ended up here. Interesting...very interesting.